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well this is my last entry under this name but i have a new one
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) 1killby_silence
so add it up cus it is friends only
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[17 May 2004|07:03pm] |
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Well I want the weekend but it is only monday. Any who I want BAND PRACTICE SO BAD, but we will see what happens but it better happen. But what else hmmmmmmmmmm this is really pointless but I am so goddam bored.
LIST ONE THING THAT U WOULD LIKE TO DO WITH ME AND PUT THIS IN YOUR JOURNAL AND SEE WHAT PEOPLE THINK
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[16 May 2004|07:08pm] |
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Ouch that is the first thing that comes to mind. Last night was intense BURY YOUR DEAD where fuckin amazing and i am happy I got to see them. But maybe it was not worth all of the pain. But any way me and zach had a goof time. SORYY ABOUT MISSING YOUR PARTY KELLY IT LOOKED REALLY FUN. But back to school tomorrow that blows. WITH HONOR friday I am realy happy about that one hopefully me and Zach can go. We are most likley goin to go. But any way i guess I will see everyone this week it is goin to be great week i hope goodnight
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| Its been a long time yet nothin ever happens |
[14 May 2004|07:52am] |
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Time and time again I try to say that it is goin to get better and it never really does. Well now it is that is right the year is rapping up the grades are goin up and my time in school is goin to finally payed off. Summer is alomost heat i am happy about that time away form school I am always happy. But any way I got the whole hair cut sporting a new style u will have to see to believe. BURY YOUR DEAD and BLOD for BLOOD this weekend very happy about that should be good times for everyone. Me and Zach are hitting that ish up saturday night. But any way not a lot has changed for me i am just put myslef out there for the ladies to nibbled on until one bites that would be cool. But I have to go back to class and hopefully we will chill this weekend
- PEACE
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| Night Quil is the worst when you do not need it |
[11 May 2004|06:09pm] |
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Well i just woke up and the last time i looked at the clock it was 2:30 that is the fuckin wierdest thing. But any way I think I am sick and I took Nyquil so now i am all groggy and I wanna just do nothing. But that is not goin to happen. \
It is really hot out and that is nice I have to get some english work done so i will be off now i hope everyone has a great day and It is like this tomorrow
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[10 May 2004|07:53am] |
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Hmmmmmmmmm, what a weekend yesterday sucked I had to go to a funneral but i did get to eat white castle so that made up for the bad day. Saturday night was a little differnt but it was fun. I hung out with joel and we went to a little thang at a temple and saw ambition free good times. After that we and jole walked into town it was great, we got some mozzerela stick with really bad sauce but we got to talk and that was kewl. Then we went to a little after party and that was a blast people are very funny. I had a reall good time.
O Ya this shit is friends only so u know what to do comment to be added
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| ITS GONNA RAIN |
[08 May 2004|06:23pm] |
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So last night was fun hung out with anthony and zach watched family guy all last night that was hilarious. But any way today sach left aroung 8:45 this morning that was kinda gay, I did not work there was no drivers ed and i just sat down cleaned my room have to finish that and just realaxed. Tomorrow is mothers day exciting i have to work that is gay.
Any way i cannot wait for summer it is so close i can smell it speaking of smelling i should check the dinner any way talk to u guys later
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| I hate early mornings in the library |
[07 May 2004|07:36am] |
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Hmmmmmmmmm, the weather outside is so nasty. It feels like it is a monday i did not want to get out of bed this morning. But besides that this weekend is goin to be boring i wanna do something tonight maybe see a movie that would be fun. But besides that yesturday was the resturant at tech and i was there all day that was fun and i got to cook all day that made me happy. It is good to have a sense of direction in life and know what u wanna do. But not knowing who you are is a problem and a big one at that. But any way that is pretty much it life goes on and I hopefully figure this out for myself.
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[05 May 2004|07:58am] |
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Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Well um not sure what to say i mean life is like a never ending book that u read for the first time. It is so complicated and you never can figure out what is goin to happen next that is the most uneasy felling. One minute i am am up on top of the word and the nest minute i do not want to do shit cus that is what i feel like it is getting to the point of just being anoying
But on a lighter note my band has a name in mind but we are not really sure so just comment and say what u think about it or if u have any other idea
Painter of you
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Paint her of you
so comment away
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| well hello there |
[04 May 2004|06:21pm] |
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Hey I am alive i did not just disapear off the face of the earth. But any way i am in a lot of trouble and i am confused. I am afraid that i really do not know who i am and that is affecting me a lot i mean i am not sure how to run my life off of that thought. But i would like to thank everyone for caring so much that helped a lot. And i should be back to normal by the weekend
But besides that i am really not aloud to do anything but i am talk to my mom again so that is better i mean we almost killed each other it was horable.
But um i will try to get intouch with peeps for this weekend i will talk to u guys later
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| This is the time when i wonder why I do this to myself |
[30 Apr 2004|09:12pm] |
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Welllllllllllll what a fuckin day the only good thing band practice that was fuckin awsome now for the fun
Well first things firts no sunday report card came i have not release to look forward to. I am not sure what i am goin to do with all of this anger inside of me and it is my fault. I am the failure there is nothin i can do about it. I mean it is goin to be a long weekend and i just want to get through it. I am terrified about what i might do to my slef................................
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| It is times like these when i relize how god damn much my friends mean to me |
[29 Apr 2004|09:39pm] |
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Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo it has been rough latley i am holding on. But friends are the reason that i am still hear and a lot of thinking and the terror cd about a thousand time. But anyway i get to see them on sunday and that will be the turning point for me. I will be the happiest kid for weeks after that but any way.
I have to go so tired after a day with brendon, monica, joelle, ryan so that is it peace
ON THE WAY TO BEING HAPPY
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[28 Apr 2004|07:46am] |
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Why is this happening again why am i comeing undone. I am happy or i think i am i mean it is just really bad. My school life is a mess and i cannot handle it. I have SAT's this weekend which really sucks the stress i have is way to much it is taking over me. I am really in the mood to give it up and just get away form this life my family the friends that i do not have it is horrible. I am usally able to do this. I need this show on sunday i need to get all of this shit off of my chest. All I keep thinking about is how i am a failure and I cannot do a thing in life. Well this is what i have been told. DO know what it feels like to be put down by the people who you look u to. It makes you feel like there is nothin left, like you have nothing to live for. I hate feeling this way I wanna put on a happy face and know that is what I feel like. I really appreciate what MONICA has been doin for me it is really great and I know what she is saying is true I just have to prove it to myself............................................
If anyone can talk to me about this cuz i am goin someplace i was before and never want to go back
PLEASE HELP????????????????????????????????????????????????????/
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Why is it that the people closest to you always put you down the hardest
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| hmmmmmmmmmm its days like this when i wished bad news did not exist |
[26 Apr 2004|02:39pm] |
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So today what kewl and it sucked at the same time. I left school early so i could go the the hospital and find out my rib is cracked and i cannot do shit for a while. But any way besides that the weather sucks i want sunday to come so badly eventhough i cannot dance at all. But any way me and Monica talked last night things are goin good we are just movin at an equal pace which helps a lot. So any way we are suppose to hang out this week. And for now I think that, that is it.
Practice friday again hope it goes better
But I will talk to u peeps later
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[25 Apr 2004|09:11am] |
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so practice went ok on friday the are some things that need to be fixed like myself and that was it. So anyway me and Zach chilled friday night and he slept over very cool kid. Yesturday i almost died at drivers ed and that kind of sucked. Me and zach just hung around the house yesturday and he left around 4:30. It kinda sucked that he could not come to the show. So after that I went to the show and had a great time i saw a lot of people that i do not get to see often so that was fun. THE LEGACY VIRUS was fuckin amazing last night they get better and better every time i see them. Nora was not that bad the live show was ok. But after that was fun i went to Cactus Jack with John, Ali, Monica, and Emily. Now that was and experiance. They are a great bunch of ladies. Monica u are very funny and we should deff hangout some more but any way i am so fuckin sore i think my rib crackes last night but any way. Today maybe work maybe not might be hangin out with monica that would be kewl.
So eveyone have a nice day and see u monday
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| o man o man o man |
[23 Apr 2004|07:54am] |
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I fuckin hate this weather it is so bad. But anyway today is practice and than chillin with zach it sould be a fuckin blast. But i hope we get some shit done today.
But i hope the weather gets better so i am not so fuckin tired
And i think that, that is it for now
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[21 Apr 2004|05:36am] |
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So what a night I had. I started to get ready for leep around 8 30. THat will never happen again I feel like i never went to sleep last night and that sucks i am so tired. I have work today, not sure about tomorrow, friday band practice i cannot wait for that. Saturday is NORA and The Legacy Virus that should be fun hang out with some old friends and some new ones. Besides that it is so crappy out and it is really bothering me. why can the weather be nice all the time I want the summer to be hear so badly. I am so sick of school gettin in trouble parents never happpy with me I feel like i have nothing left.
Besides that I had met some one new and it was a lot of fun to get to know her last night on the phone she is very interesting. But I am not jumping into anything so do not worry any way. I want the weather to get better so i can be in a better mood i am to tired to even talk or type so I hope that everyone has a nice day and I will talk to u later.
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